Everything before me seems slick indescribable. I know that there is purpose in this journey and things are slowly being revealed unto me. I’m scared. The call for greatness and the call for “what is right for the weak” is a strong one. The fight against pride is a strong one. The fight against fear is a strong one. What happens next? What challenges will come? Can I do this? These questions constantly swirl in my head and I just want to run. But to whom much is given much is required right? Finding peace in uncertainty… finding peace in a journey is what has to happen. I’m working. I’m learning. I’m growing just like everyone else around me. I don’t want to get lost in the shuffle or feel like LJSOJNWFNIWNHIBVHNSJAFCKIJ <—— That’s code for idk but I’m scared as hell lol. I hear the Lord calling and tugging at my heart, but I’m human. I have human thoughts, and the world isn’t humane. My mind doesn’t stop and wouldn’t if I wanted it to. These thoughts and doubts are very real and follow me to bed at night. So today I’m going to try and find some peace. Idk where to start, or how NOT to remain reclusive when seeking peace is over. All I can say is that I’m trying.